Now And After

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Waiting to turn my pain into tears
Lifting the dam that’s blocking the stream
Now that the stones have melt from my heart
I feel as empty as I’ve felt in the start
Is it myself I’m trying to fool
Hiding behind established rules?
Is it myself I’m trying to buy
Trading the heavens for the sky?
Waiting to pour my happiness out
Laughing and smiling, dancing around
Now that the bliss has melt from my soul
I feel as empty as I’ve felt before
Is it myself…
Beautiful, busy, astonished, attractive
Devoted, deceptive, aggressive & blind
Fabulous, fertile, forsaken, suspicious
Pretentious, perverted, reluctant & kind
Nervous, nostalgic, sincere, superficial
Uncertain, dependent, sarcastic & loud
Sensitive, sensual, afraid, apprehensive
Difficult, stubborn, possessive & proud
Every day
Changing
All the time
Waiting
Is it myself…
Waiting for my plans to succeed
Working on their fullfilment for years
Now that all my dreams have come true
I feel there’s nothing else here for me to do